The Torture

:)
1. Got the day off.
2. Feeling relaxed.
3. Had Taco Bell.
4. Getting work... worked out.
5. New LinkedIn Stuff.

I am thankful for...
1. Kyle.
2. Clarissa.
3. Jason.
4. Amanda.
5. Dad.

I'm hearing right now...
Goo Goo Dolls - Give a Little Bit

I'm feeling Unloved.

Today was fairly uneventful as most days here as of late have been. Really the days have been eventful but they've been filled with events that I'd rather not speak of and events that I wish never happened.

I've never had so many regrets as I do right now at this stage in my life. Almost everything I can think of as of late has a regret that goes right along with it. I know that everything happens for a reason and that many times I won't understand these reasons but seriously I'm just about over all of these feelings that I've been having as of late.

I just want these feelings to go away but they won't. They keep coming back. Everything keeps repeating. I want the pain to end. It won't... not right away though. I'll just keep suffering... I hope soon enough the suffering can end though I don't believe it will. I believe I'm meant to suffer for everything I've done... for all of the people I've hurt. I want to fix those things... I want to take back the things I did to hurt those people and maybe then these torture and this hell will end.